I… I think we need to take a break. I know, I know, I was already taking a break; we haven’t even spoken since before Thanksgiving. I don’t mean to sound cliched, but… it’s not you, definitely not you. It’s me. This is all me. See, right now, I have to prioritize school. Our relationship is precious to me, but… it’s all or nothing. I wish I was stronger, for the both of us. I wish I could find a balance. But I’m not, and I’m incapable. It has to be all or nothing. I’m sorry I’m so weak. Maybe, someday, we can be together again. I miss our talks. I miss laughing and thinking and discussing. I hope we can have that… once life calms down again.
Okay, so maybe that was dramatic as hell, but if I’m continuing my hiatus, I figured I may as well leave you entertained.
If you want to know more, read on.
I started this and ran with it and still have lots of ideas for it, including that previously promised series on my *very* old writing, culture (I’ll even have some more inspiration from that Christmas party I’m throwing tomorrow for all my foreign friends), and even a comic on grammar and writing and teaching and whatever else I feel like (like xkcd, but with better stick figures, less math, and more crude jokes).
But no… just no… Right now, I have to prioritize school, and it really is all or nothing. This all needs to take a major back seat to reality. I am a PhD student, and I have a comprehensive examination to take next semester in the form of writing and defending a research proposal. I also have three papers I’m working on, and I’m hoping the break in teaching that comes with December will give me the edge I need to get a lot of research done fast.
Believe me, this blog isn’t the only thing on hiatus. I’ve also banned myself from writing for leisure. I can’t afford to become inspired right now; it’s all or nothing when it comes to working on my novels. I can’t live half-way.
So, expect nothing at all whatsoever in December… absolute worst-case scenario of doom, I’ll be buried in my proposal all the way through to when it’s absolutely due in May.
This is not the post #42 I was hoping for, and so as soon as I’m ready to post again, this will go away.